By Larry Sanders
About The Book
Growing up gay in a working class family in Arkansas, I learned at an early age to keep quiet and hide my feelings. I knew little about sex, had never been touched or kissed, never played sports, hunted with guns, or participated in school events. Then one day I found myself in a foreign country carrying an M-16 rifle and a medical bag fighting a war I knew little about. Within weeks of my arrival in Vietnam the Tet Offensive exploded all around me, changing my life, the war, and the entire world. I witnessed death on a daily basis and became known as Baby-san Bac-si, the baby-faced combat medic. Soon after returning from Vietnam, I learned to keep quiet again and hide those stories. It was safer that way. Until now, the memories of actual events and the interesting people from my early life, as well as my time in Vietnam were stories I had kept buried, carrying many for over fifty years. This book began a few years ago when my grandmother on my father’s side died at ninety-six years of age. She had saved all the letters I had written to her from Vietnam. Somehow they ended up back in my hands. As I read them, one by one, they became a record of an innocent eighteen-year-old boy slowly turning into a man. In the beginning, I was a kid never questioning authority. By the end, I was a young man questioning a crazy senseless war. When I began writing in earnest, voices from my past rushed forward. Voices of childhood innocence and laughter; voices of shame and fear; and finally, voices of affection and forgiveness that begged me never to hide or forget them again, no matter how insignificant or unimportant they seemed. A lifetime later, I am no longer afraid to tell the stories. I will never forget any of them. 

"Why read a book about someone else’s life? “I cried not for Larry, but for me.” The book consists of 40 true stories dealing with life, death, survival, acceptance, and forgiveness. These intimate memories are much more than a chronicle through the historical war in Vietnam, they are also a journey of personal memories of every day events growing up in Arkansas. They evoke universal themes that touch the reader in profound ways. “What I had read was like a tuning fork for me. As if my heart picked up on the vibrations of the story - the innocence of being young again, and the loss of innocence in facing the challenges of a cruel world, the uncertainty of a relationship with someone I admired, the memory of becoming aware of what I was - a homosexual, I recognized that fear and insecurity of my growing up, the terror that someone might find out “my secret” and the heavy burden of having to learn how to live with it and keep it hidden. This book brought back the memories of the pain during those years. I cried not for Larry, but for me.” "

""Such a fabulous read" "Beautiful" "Hard to put down" "Days in a life" "Excellent Read" "Mesmerizing Stories" "

About The Author
Larry Sanders grew up in Little Rock and went to Vietnam in late 1967, just in time to see Bob Hope at a USO Christmas show. After the events of this book, he received his Bachelor’s degree on the GI Bill and pursued a career in graphic art. He was an art director for many years and later opened, with his husband Tom, a Mexican folk art shop in Deep Ellum in Dallas, Texas. Casa Mexicana was a popular store where Larry and Tom made many lasting friendships, including a special puppy named Chica Milagro (Miracle Girl), who has as many visitors to the store as did the humans. They closed the business in late 2010 to enjoy an active retirement with their rescue dogs in North Dallas. In 2015, after the Supreme Court ruling, they took the plunge and tied the knot after 40 years together. Incoming is Larry’s first book, and there are plans for more.